I'm embracing a new me. It's been 3 weeks since I got my job and I've been enjoying it so far. It feels good contributing to something other than my own personal wardrobe. I get to know more types of people, the types that I used to laugh at with my friends before. When you get to know them more, you learn to laugh WITH them.
It's funny how I look back at me 3 months ago. I don't know what's gotten into me, but I felt like a poser, sort of like when you wear someone else's shoes, and you feel proud about wearing it, but at the end of the day you know it's not yours. Then one day you realize that sooner or later, you have to give it back, so you do.
I've always known I've got this much to offer. I was just waiting for the right time to make it, and I think this is it. I'm sure I'm gonna change my mind soon but at least the sudden C boost gives me something to look forward to. Not the lifeless scum bottom feeder (it's just an exaggeration) that I was a month ago. I was trying to chase dreams that I knew aren't mine and aren't mine to have.
Now I realize what I need to do. I've recognized the culture, lifestyle, and habits that I am in and tried to figure out how these things work out for what I ultimately want. For now, at least, I want to break free.
I can see a bit clearer now. The path is still hazy but at least I can see where my next step should be. I don't think I want to see what's at the end of the road anyway.
It's funny how I look back at me 3 months ago. I don't know what's gotten into me, but I felt like a poser, sort of like when you wear someone else's shoes, and you feel proud about wearing it, but at the end of the day you know it's not yours. Then one day you realize that sooner or later, you have to give it back, so you do.
I've always known I've got this much to offer. I was just waiting for the right time to make it, and I think this is it. I'm sure I'm gonna change my mind soon but at least the sudden C boost gives me something to look forward to. Not the lifeless scum bottom feeder (it's just an exaggeration) that I was a month ago. I was trying to chase dreams that I knew aren't mine and aren't mine to have.
Now I realize what I need to do. I've recognized the culture, lifestyle, and habits that I am in and tried to figure out how these things work out for what I ultimately want. For now, at least, I want to break free.
I can see a bit clearer now. The path is still hazy but at least I can see where my next step should be. I don't think I want to see what's at the end of the road anyway.
posted by Rom / Rub according to the barista @ 5:09 AM
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