It's almost 2am!

Insomnia getting worse

Yesterday, I slept at 5 AM. I always tell myself to sleep earlier but everytime I try, I find it harder to sleep. My technique is to breathe heavily, but after 2 minutes I completely forget about it because of my thoughts. Heavy breathing works for me because I find that it relaxes my muscles.

So now, I'm trying blogging again since I read somewhere that diverting your attention to other things can actually help you relax.

Anyway, just bits and baubles (if the internet had plagiarism laws, I'd be dead by now)---

1. I think I have Obsessive-Impulsive Disorder. There's no medical term, although I think in certain medical circles, they categorize this under OCD cases. It's almost like OC, but instead of focusing on one thing/compulsion, I go from one to the other, and I obsess about every single one of them.

Ex: Internet.
men.style.com.
clicks on top 10 essentials.
thinks "hmmm, nice stuff".
browses , finds another article and decides that anyone who uses "uber" is jologs.
looks for the etymology of the word and its influence in pop culture.
pop. andy warhol. i wonder what his influences are.
wikies andy.
decides to smoke after seeing a picture of him smoking.
goes back to the internet, looks at highsnobiety.com.
nice new plaid/flannel/check/tartan shirt. what's the difference?
wikies plaid/flannel/check/tartan.
hmmmm, I wonder what's up with that DJ blog.

Get the picture?

2. I miss my friends. Or rather, I miss my friendships. Those carefree times. Everybody's got their own lives now. Actually, I'm the one who doesn't want to reach out. I'm too comfy in my own little enclave. I get invited but I think I'd rather watch Jeopardy. I love my friends! I jsut need to get out of this habit.

3. You can witness Pinoy crab mentality in ABS-CBN's "Wheel of Fortune". Why do they have to shout "Bankrupt" and "Lose a Turn" when another player is spinning the wheel? Why? It's irritating. Even Kris cringes.

4. I don't like the idea in the new Nescafe/Nestea/Nestle (pick one) commercial with the aliens. I didn't get it at first. I think that's why I read about it on the newspaper today: so they can explain to the audience what it actually means.

I'm so sleepy now but I think I'll smoke just another yosi.

posted by Rom / Rub according to the barista @ 3:46 AM